So this is it. I finally made my decision.

I had my baptism class. And had the interview.

Been thinking about this for quite some time. Actually started thinking eversince i came back from GLO. On and off.

2nd november marks the date. Anyone coming? ;)

A couple of days before, cy had been talking about this email yy send us. Due to the nothing-to-do-ness, i went through my inbox and found that mail.

The title and the rest go like this:

'Men are hard to please.'

The problems with guys:

If you treat him nicely, he say you're in love with him.
If you don't, he says you're proud.

If you argue with him, he says you're stubborn.
If you keep quiet, he says you have no brains.

If you tell him your problems, he says you're troublesome.
If you don't, he says you're selfish.

If you scold him, you're like a nanny to him.
If he scolds you, it's because he cares for you.

If you do well in your exams, he says it's luck.
If he does well, it's brains.

If you dress nicely, he says you're trying to lure him.
If you don't, he says you're from kampung.

If you're smarter than him, then he'll lose face.
If he's smarter than you, he is great.

If you break your promise, you cannot be trusted.
If he breaks his, he is forced to do so.



No comment. haha.

She remembered back into standard 1, only she and rita got the bina ayat correct. Only because no one else know what does 'meragut' means but rita. And that girl beside rita also got it correct because she copied. So her copycat skills were first developed when she was 7.

And how silly was she to sneak out of the classroom in the middle of bm exam just to tell alexander who walked out to the toilet the answer for the kata bilangan question which is quite hard. She knows the answer and thought that she should tell others in case they don't know the answer. Wonder if alexander really got that question correct after she kindly offered the answer to him.

When it's time to select the class monitor and assistant monitor, she sits up with the best posture-back straight, both hands on lap, and looked into the teacher's eyes, telling:"Pick me, choose me" Somehow it works, she became the assistant monitor and she gets to wear the light blue badge. The once and only year that she gets the chance to be the monitor throughtout these years.

When the teacher wasn't in class, she and the class monitor walked round and round the classroom catching every single person who talks, speaks, whispers and put their name on the blackboard. And thanks to us, they were canned when the teacher got back. A good example of a monitor exploiting her power.

And there is this guy who pee-ed during cikgu kuma's lesson. He was too scared to tell the teacher that he needs to answer the call of nature. Guess he can't control it any longer and end up wetting his pants. haha.

She was second in class for 4 consecutive semesters. She used to be proud with that silver trophy she got during year end prize giving ceremony. She doesn't know where she kept that not-so-silver trophy now.

Her class was 1J,groundfloor, just right beside the toilet.


Couldn't believe that i actually remembered all these that happened during my standard 1. What amuses me is that i actually remembered some of the names of my classmates and teachers.

Finally it come to an end.

So how was it? Uhhh...bad bad bad...

Chemistry- *shakes head*
Pengajian Am- How on earth do i expect them to ask about space exploration?!As if i know a single thing about the advantages it brings. Of course i crapped through the essay, hoping my points will be convincing enough to deceive the teacher, which i don't possibly think will happen.sigh.
MUET- mr.william will laugh at my essays.
Math- The killer.
Biology- *bangs head to the wall*

I'm not sure whether the papers are getting harder or i'm losing focus that's why i felt that it's hard. What happened to me? My brain don't seem to work. All the stuff that i memorised seem to disappear at the moment i needed them most. And the thing is, i don't seem to care. Not good not good.

Anyway, it's over. Whee.

Been thinking quite alot these days.

I may be halfway through my homework and suddenly i would questioned myself.
"Why am i doing this? Did i made the right decision?"

Sometimes i like it but sometimes i doubt it. Sometimes i just feel like throwing away chemistry, biology or math and just..and just..well, i don't know.

I fairly remember the time when i decided to go for form6. After the decision was made, it's such a great relief. The feeling i can't really describe. The strong feeling that's telling me this is it, this will be the right decision. Decision made, internal struggle gone. But this didn't stay long, now the struggle is back. Not a strong one but it still pinches me here and then. Is this really for me? or i'm choosing it just for the sake of choosing.

Choosing form6 is my own decision, i have my own reasons for choosing it and i know i shouldn't regret it. I'm almost halfway thorugh it and i'll just hang on to it.

That's the thing of not having streamyx, wireless or whatever you call it.

I can't watch youtube.

Wait, i can, only that it takes AGES to load the whole thing.
A 4 minutes song took me almost 1hour to load it.
ARGH!!!

Been such a worrier lately.
Getting worried over unnecessary stuff.
Getting moody.
Maybe it's because of the coming exams.
It happens all the time.
I need to find back the peace in my heart.

I heard my mom calling, i opened my eyes and the first thing that run through my mind "i'm L-A-T-E!!". I have no time to time to condemn myself, quickly changed, grabbed my breakfast and hopped onto the car.

Thank goodness i'm not late.

Went to SPCA with fellow guides in my school. Although i just came back from cameron the day before, despite all the tiredness i still decided to go. All because i WANTED to go. Only the 5 of us (ziwei, kaheng, yenfern, weilin,me) turned up, out of the 20 we estimated. Nevertheless, we made our way to SPCA. Once we stepped down from the car, the not-very-pleasant smell of SPCA and the barking of dogs warmly welcomed us. THE SMELL. We thought that we'll going to mess around with cats and dogs. But how wrong. This man just led us into this room, fulled with stuff and asked us to arranged them nicely. Toys, CDs, books, clothes, spongebob, whatever you named it lah. And boy, the ventilation inside that room was surely not good. After a moment, our nose started to get itchy. The cleaning up took us awhile, we did the best we could. Then later on, we even tried feeding the dogs. More like opened the cage door and throw the bowl inside kind of feeding. With the amount of food they need for these dogs and cats per meal, i wonder how SPCA find funds to feed them. After all these, we left that place covered with sweat, dust, dog smell, cat smell, dog and cat's poo smell.

While we walked along the road, we saw this signboard showing 'KLCC'. Then someone popped out with this KLCC idea. And these girls were not joking man. We really find our way from ampang to KLCC. We spent most of our time in the BIG playground near klcc. Although we were 18, we played and took pics as if we were still 8. But seriously, this is the first time i stepped my foot into that park. Inside the mall, we passed by GODIVA chocolatier and saw some 'guai lou' holding chocolate ice-blended. Yenfern wanted to try.But one said too full, one said no money, another one said she don't drink chocolate, so left me. Seeing the desperate yenfern, i agreed to share with her. Tried dark chocolate decadence. It was ok-ok lar, abit too sweet.

Reached home about 5.30 and slept all the way to 10.30. Anyway, pretty productive day.

"Adoption Saves Life"

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Made a cameron trip with a few of the yf teachers and student comm to check out the campsite. With limited compound around that place, we really have to brainstrom on what activites and games we can have around there. Even playing captainball isn't safe. The ball might just fly across the low fence and finish lah like that. Someone have to run down the mini hill to find the ball. Had my first try on this 'Saboteur and Miner' game. I like this game. Cuz i always win. muahaha.

The weather was good, the food we had was good, but the traffic was terrible terrible terrible. People go to cameron to enjoy and get rid of the stress, but instead, we get more stressed, especialy the drivers. A short 500m took us 45 minutes.

Never ever go cameron during public holidays.