I'm sorry that i did not give you much responses. But i guess it had already become a part of me. Expressing myself had always been a problem for me. Maybe i did not get myself used to do this and now there's this wall building up. Looked cold on the outside, but inside i do care, but funny enough i still do not have the guts to say that i care. "What's so hard?" There's no answer, it's just hard.

This can't go on forever, a change is needed. But how long will it take? Am i ready to open myself up or do i feel reluctant.

Feel like deleting what i'd wrote. But since it's written, i'll just post it.

Feel disturbed now, can't write much.